Life gets so awkward sometimes. Yesterday, I went to a film mixer to meet fellow filmmakers in the area. I was so excited to finally go to one, but when I got there my excitement turned into anxiety and I shut down.
Luckily I had my buffer (aka my husband) that came along with me because he was able to facilitate conversation. I got to speak with a couple people. I wanted to be able to get the ball rolling by working on a production. That didn’t happen, but I’m hoping that by the next mixer I’ll be better.
I’m a little disappointed in myself. I’ve been trying to work on going out of my comfort zone so I can meet new people. I thought I was making progress, but last night showed that I still had work to do. I could barely sleep last night because I was so upset, but now I’m putting that all behind me.
Since the beginning of this year, I’ve been trying to really put a focus on my mental health and self care. I have been attempting to do yoga every morning in the comfort of my home. Once I get more confident and I get a paying job, I’ll probably join a class. I missed quite a few days and it definitely made an impact. I felt like there was something missing to my morning routine and I was super happy to pick it back up again on Monday.
I like yoga even though I’m not super flexible. It gives me time to reflect and just clear my head of all my racing thoughts. It also gives me a chance to figure out what I need to do with my stories if I’m stuck. I’m learning a lot as I go through each day. I’m learning about myself and how much my body can take. It’s been a great experience and I’m really glad I started doing it.
I’m trying to not to overthink as I work on getting my books published. There’s a lot of information that I have to go through to make sure I do things right. I’m trying not to stress myself out. It’s not like I have a set deadline. I have a hopeful deadline, but it’s something I can change if needed. I think that’s what is so great about self-publishing because you are in charge.
What are you working on this year?
How do you handle stressful situations?
What do you do for self care?
Tell me in the comments below!
Thanks for reading!
-Emi